Well, readers, I’ve finally decided to do it: After years of yo-yo dieting, I’ve decided, once and for all, this will be the year my fitness journey gets me back to 115 pounds. (For the record, I’m 5’4″).
But the weight stuck. It’s been six years and one healthy pregnancy, and at the start of this year, I was still up 25 pounds from my ideal weight. I finally decided, no matter how hard it was, I was going to do this. Health issues be damned.
So far, I’ve lost 10 pounds since March, which means I only I have another 14 to lose, and I’m so there.
The thing is, my son is now 15 months old, and we’ve finally settled into more of a reliable, structured routine. I feel like I’m able to take time nightly to exercise (the Peloton is my girl, if you know what I mean!), and I have started to see a dietitian again. I’m doing 1200-1600 calories a day, eating a lot of green salads, and cooking a solid amount of protein-and-vegetables-type-
For the record, I know I’m not fat. I’m 129 pounds right now, a solid size 4, and I’m healthy. Overall, I think I look OK, although I still think my face looks too wide on videos (sometimes I’m too self-conscious to even post them, how messed up is that?!), and I broke my nose a few years ago, so I also think my nose looks too wide now in general. I mean, I don’t feel very pretty most of the time, at least not compared to five or ten years ago, if I’m being honest. But, I mean, I do plan to get my nose fixed once I’m done having children (pregnancy does crazy things to your bone structure!), and I am doing something about the weight. Sometimes I think true acceptance of yourself starts with being honest about your true feelings, and working up from there.
Anyway, if you would like to join me on my fitness journey, follow me:
On Peloton, I’m @nickiZBenvenuti
On MyFitnessPal, I’m @nickibenvenuti
All the best,